Growing Up.

time; it has a beautiful way of showing us what really matters.

Growing up, we took many things around us for granted. You might have thought that things always come easy, that people around you are always kind and that you’ll always have food on the table. But never have you thought that all that you had, was because of the people who loves you.

As a child, you were well sheltered and protected from all the things that could possibly hurt you. So much that you may have hated them for choosing your paths on your behalf, and for making certain decisions without your knowledge. But often, there is only this much that you could see. Beneath that, are things that no one would ever tell you as a child.

But as you grow, you start realising why they do what they did, and why they say what they said.

They told you to stop seeing a particular someone not because you’re too young for a relationship, but because they are trying to save you from a heartbreak.

They told you to stop hanging out with the same group of friends not because they don’t like you socialising, but because they are trying to protect you from the bad influences.

They told you to study hard to enter college not only because they could be proud of you, but because they want the best for you and they want to see you lead a comfortable life.

They want you to challenge yourself and be independent not so that they no longer have to worry, but because they are worried that you won’t be able to deal with the real world without them.

All these things that they do, it’s only because they want to protect you from the unforeseen. They didn’t want you to go through what they did, see their darling making the same mistakes they made and get hurt the same way they were. All these things that they do, they are simply telling you that they love you. Because no matter how much you’ve grown and how matured you have become, you will always be their gem.

And the thing you might not have realised about growing up is that, you will no longer be held in their arms and be guided through your every step. But they’d still do everything that leads you to your dreams. And little do you know is, they’ll always be your home to fall back on when things get rough.

Because in their eyes, you’ll always be their precious little one.

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One Day.

One day it’ll all piece together.
One day it’ll all come as one.
One day it’ll all make sense.

One day you’ll understand why you went through the toughest paths.

The pain that you went through as a child, the imbalanced emotions, deprived encouragements and helplessness you felt because there was nothing you could do to salvage situations. But as you grew up, it was those things that made you a stronger person. It was those experiences that made you accept vulnerability. It was those times that made you want to help others relieve themselves from powerless situations. Simply, you wish that no one else should and would go through what you went through — because it wasn’t easy, and that not everyone will come out fine like you did.

One day you’ll see how far you’ve come and be proud.

The number of times you failed, the people you lost and the paths you chose only to realize that they were all dead ends. There will come a day when you finally understand that all paths lead to different destinations, and that there is no best route to embark on. And perhaps, you will never have answers to all that mattered, but that is okay. Because life is about the chase, it is about navigating through the unnavigable and each step forward is enlightening. So Darling, every wrong turn and every wrong step will do you no harm but only to deepen your beautiful story.

One day you’ll understand that things doesn’t always go your way.

The things that you prayed for weren’t answered, your expectations were not fulfilled and you probably empathised with others more than they did with you. Well, not everyone shines through the dark, and definitely not everyone sees the same light as you. But be sure, there will come a day where you will find happiness in the little things you can do for them. And on that day, you would realise that it is okay if things aren’t as planned, and not all routes lead to the destinations that you’ve taken off for.

One day you’ll realise that you just haven’t found your person and be glad.

The person whom you thought is the love of your life, the one who could walk down the aisle with you, left without saying a word. This person became nobody overnight. And yes, the healing process wouldn’t be easy, no one ever said it will be. But things will take a turn eventually, and when you get there one day, you’ll finally understand why it turned out that way. And maybe then, you just haven’t found your person.

One day, you’ll understand why everyone else left. When that day arrives, you’ll be the reason why someone stays. You’ll be the reason someone believes again. You’ll be the person they thought they’d never find. You’ll be their fight and they’ll do anything to keep you. One day, you’ll be the person they choose over and over again. And on that day, it will be the right kind of happiness that you deserve.

And one day, you’ll see beneath your beautiful. Then maybe, you’ll finally learn to love yourself and be contented with the things that made you who you are.

Be the one.

When the world turn their back against you, be the one who doesn’t do the same.

Be the one who perseveres. The one who doesn’t see it as a reason to leave. The one who stays. Be the one who still sees the good in people. Be the one who forgives.

In this tough battle, be the one who chooses to fight. Who chooses to fight despite the pain. Who chooses to stand firmly to the ground and to not get knocked down. Who chooses to jump over the hurdles, and to endure through all the challenges. No matter how hard they may seem to be.

Be the one who fights for what’s right for the world. Who constantly believes that life will get better with the days. Be the one who doesn’t walk away when things go wrong. Who doesn’t turn away.

Be the one who fights for the people you love. Who chooses love over hate. Be the one who is thankful for the things that you have. Who doesn’t take love for granted.

Be the one who recognises good things. Who chooses not to run away in fear of getting run over. Be the one who never takes advantage of it.

Be the one who is kind. Who is genuine and sees things with bright eyes. Be the one who priorities your family and friends. Who doesn’t neglect people who cares. Who greets others with softened eyes and an open heart. Be the one who appreciates people who pushes you to be better.

Be the one who trusts. Who doesn’t let anyone down. Who follows through the good times and the bad. No matter how rough the world gets. No matter how tough the battle is.

Be the one who stays.

Untouchable.

There is always one person from your past whom is untouchable.

Untouchable because you thought you could be there for each other, but couldn't. Untouchable because you tried your best to make things work, but it seemed impossible. Untouchable because you thought they were your destination, but turns out that it was just a stopover.

Reminiscing the beginning, everything fitted so nicely. You had endless conversations, you couldn't get enough of their presence and everything just seemed to be happening for a reason.

But one day, all of a sudden, things went downhill. You didn't value each other like before anymore. You didn't make time for each other like you did in the beginning. And things went out of hand, you felt like you were losing what you had. The foundation that you built on, it was slowly breaking into bits and pieces. As this went on, you realised that it wasn't worth holding on anymore.

Then, you let go.

You let go not because you stopped loving each other. Not because you no longer care. And certainly not because you’ve lost the touch. But because leaving will do you good. It will bring both of you to a better place. And possibly, the next person who comes along, he or she will be someone of your dreams.

Yet, this person never leaves; because those feelings for them do not get lost, they just wander.

And, there may come a day where you realize that you could still pick things up from where you left off. However, like assembling the shattered pieces of a broken vase, it won't look whole anymore.

There, you'd realise that this person who was the soul to your heart, becomes untouchable; where words could only be spoken through tears.

My love, you formed such an important part of my life, yet we're so far apart. But I'm glad that you were part of it, because i wouldn't want to spend those times any other way.

We always knew that it was tough moving forward, but it was even tougher trying to make things work. While it was easier to stop hurting each other, because we deserve magic and nothing less.

A Letter To My Children In The Future.

Darlings, here are Mom’s promises to you:

I promise that I will be there to witness every step while you grow and become a person filled with passion, love and dreams. 

I promise to never stop supporting and encouraging you when you’re making life’s toughest decisions. I’ll be there; through your stressful college periods, and getting you through those pre-marriage anxieties. 

I promise that when life gets tough, home will always be your shelter from all storms. Because Mom will always be the person whom you can fall back on, and that i’ll be backing you up at all costs.

And I promise that I will be the person hearing you out when you need someone to talk to. Although I might not be able to give you the best advice or be your best listening ear, but I hope to be the person relieving you from the complicated world. 

Sure, one day you will find your very own sweetheart like I did, I know you will. And there will come a day when you would no longer need me like you do when you were younger. But remember that I’ll always be here, and i’ll always love you.

With all my heart. xx

Goodbye Isn’t Forever, Or Is It?

During a recent trip, I was told a beautiful love story.

Like novels, it is amazing how two people can find their way back to each other even after decades. But what’s harder to imagine are the milestones they missed out in each other’s lives.

I asked myself repeatedly,

“How did they do it? How can they stand being apart if they meant so much to each other?”

“Did everything stayed the same?”

“And why didn’t they try to work things out in the beginning?”

Then, I came to the realization that two people often needed to be apart to know the importance of each other. And despite all the time they were apart, they still loved like before and this time, they knew that they want to stay. They knew that they are each other’s pillar of support.

Often, many don’t get second chances after losing what they had. And those who did, did not take on that chance.

But I’m glad they did.

Because when they met again in the future, they were finally ready for each other. Indeed.

It was heartbreaking yet rejoicing because he thought his love was too much for her. He thought that she could only find her happiness without him in the picture.

It was only till they found each other again, they then realised that certain things didn’t change; people might change and feelings do fade, but when the love is real, it never really goes away.

Their love story was so inspiring that I hope that the world could hear it. I hope that you, too, can be inspired by it and do not let go of the people who matter to you.

They were lucky to have found love again. But how often do chances like these happen?

So, if they do matter to you, tell them. Appreciate them today. Don’t wait till it gets too late. Don’t wait for second chances to appear.

Because they might be gone, forever.

I Want To Chase Sunsets With You.

Sunsets are one of the most beautiful things in the world. They signify the end, but also celebrates the beginning of something new.

And love, you are my sunrise and sunset.

When i see you, all i picture is us walking down the aisle together, hand in hand. You, my love, gave me everything that no one else could; your gentle touch, humor, patience and thoughtfulness.

After all these time, I couldn’t be more thankful for what I have.

Thank you for allowing me to be myself.
Thank you for supporting my dreams.
Thank you for chasing after your own passion.
Thank you for working hard for us.
Thank you for being silly with me.
Thank you for staying through our worst and best.
Thank you for being who you said you are.

Thank you, for handing me a fortune that no money can buy.

And now, i want to chase sunsets with you. Because with every sunset, it comes sunrise. Like our love, it begins all over again everyday. So when the day ends, we can renew our love when the sun rises.

Sweetheart, I look forward to every beginning with you. Because not a single moment is dull when we are together.

I love you, and I love sunsets with you.