Fret not. Even if things doesn’t seem fine for you right now, they will be. One day, you would understand that your parents did everything they could to save their marriage and your family from breaking apart. But, there is only so much that they can do and it is often for the better.
Looking back, most of your time may be spent watching them having endless arguments. Anger. Disagreement. Violence. It must have been unpleasant to witness. Yet, there was nothing that you could do to help.
Gradually, you felt like no one could understand the circumstances you’re facing in your life, and neither could they think in your shoes. There, you started building an indestructible wall, so that you could save yourself from explanations and what not.
But soon enough, you realized that you are suppressing all your emotions by putting up a strong front, so that no one could see through your heart.
Well, people thought you were difficult. Withdrawn. Unfriendly. But in fact, you just needed your own space, so that no one will have to be bothered by your struggles.
Now, I want you to know that it is okay to talk about it. It is okay to allow yourself to let loose, share your fears and anxieties. Do not be afraid to open up.
I also need you to know that things will fall into place eventually, and everything will start afresh. Because then, you will see that everyone is in a better place. Happier.
I understand that there may be times of reminiscent, when you felt like you lost it all; all the good times you had as a family. But i want you to continue fighting for yourself, and that you’ll never let this bring you down.
Because you should never lose faith. Don’t allow yourself to.